Suicidal Love Story Vol9 Helenium of Hate Chptr 35

“Ah it’s that girl again, I think she likes you!” my sister barged in, randomly talking to me as I was chatting online to Jung.

“Why don’t you go out with her, it’s been a long time since you went out on a date?” She asked. The point why my sister was bugging me is that she knew I had been depressed recently and she wanted to see me happy, she thought that being in a relationship would provide such happiness and that maybe she would get a new cool best friend out of it. I must note that my sister knew little about the girls I dated but we rarely kept it to ourselves never telling our parents, heaven forbid that. If my family knew about my love life they would either flip out or hope for grandchildren, I was lucky I was not in an arranged marriage or a date by them however the thought did occur to me and maybe it was better to have an arrangement but I found that to be less exciting, I liked going on dates with random people however it always turned sour when they wanted more. It had been a long time since I went dating and I thought about it. What if I was to date Jung? I didn’t find her attractive, I only seen her as a friend. Yet she was a good friend and I could tell that she was attracted to me. It was pleasant and my sister said “If she’s so nice and actually likes you, give her a chance. You might become really good for each other” So I decided, Jung was a very friendly person and tried to help me reconcile with Jia-Li, not even Jiao did that for me. I thought maybe she did deserve to go out on a date with me. I’ll give her a chance, so I thought.

I asked her if she would like to meet me for a drink and she agreed. I went into town and told her specifically to meet me outside a certain sushi restaurant. When I finally went there, I could not see her, I thought perhaps she was not there yet, that she was a little late. I waited for a moment until I began to text her, asking where she was. Her reply “I can see you”. I looked around me, seeing people walk past and there I noticed her approaching me as if she was always there. She wore a red frock dress with a white cardigan, blue jeans and black pebble necklace. Her style was aesthetically pleasing and I knew she was dressed to impress but sadly I was not impressed, I found it to be mundane and not really special, she had no make-up and I liked that. I loved when women had a more natural look rather than caking themselves in make-up. I already told her once what my taste in women was like so I believe she picked up on that. I asked if she was alright, yet she seemed very quiet and stiff. Perhaps she was just nervous and in a while she’ll soon snap out of it and be comfortable. So this was a date like so many I have been on however a date is when two people both like each other, right? I saw her as a friend and thought of it as just a little get-together. As we walked she seemed very quiet, I noticed people were looking at us, I never understood why pedestrians would look at me whenever I was with someone, we were not even holding hands so I thought it was strange. We eventually went to a bar I was fond of, A coincidence, it just so happened we had to drink at the same place where Jia-Li drinks but it was early in the day and hardly anyone was there, it was nice a quiet.
“Have you been here before?” Jung asked in a low yet childish voice.
“Yeah… with a Chinese woman, not Jia-Li though--just forget I said that!” I chuckled. She seemed interested in why I was attracted to Chinese women; I don’t think I was but I thought it was a cultural thing, I had things in common with them and this was comfortable for both of us. We had a couple of drinks and began to talk on a variety of subjects. Then she asked what exes I had, I found that to be a bit odd but we were friends so I asked about her ex and she told me. It was the regular thing, the break up and the two of them were not in the zone or one changed and didn’t like it. That kind of average thing, I reassured Jung it was just natural and she’ll find someone who she’d connect with and would love her.

“So, what about and your ex girlfriend?” She smiled dimly.
What was there to say? I had no reason to talk about them.
“What about Jia-Li?” She asked.
My eyes glinted.
“Go on, it’s okay if you want to talk about her” she assured me.
“I don’t think that’s a good idea” I said but she replied back and reassured me that it’s fine. Yeah, there were things I wanted off my chest about her so I shrugged my shoulders and we began to talk about her.

I spoke of my high school memories and to her surprise I told her a couple of people actually thought I and Jia-Li were dating, completely silly but I think those people knew there was some strange aura between us. Suddenly Jung mumbled “You look happy when you talk about her, your smile seems so nice… You must really love her…”

That instant my face dropped, yeah… I was happy… but not anymore for she’s not here or wishing to be with me. Regardless my feelings for her are in the past, I just wanted to move on and I made sure Jung got that but Jung knew that I could never let go off Jia-li so easily. I can’t erase her from my past, she was too important to me even though I messed up big time on her, a remnant of my mistakes.

Later we went out and had lunch, it was a nice day but I was getting tired. We sat down on the grass and had a little rest for our feet were aching from walking. Watching the sun set, without warning she asked me “Are you a virgin?”
I don’t think she should be saying such things so soon. It was too personal; yeah maybe I would say it bluntly back in the past or something but this was just odd. I reluctantly told her that I was a virgin; I had not yet done full penetrative sex. Out of curiosity I wanted to know if she too was a virgin and without a pause she told me she was. I breathed a sigh of relief, so we’re both virgins, so we both don’t know what the full experience is like. We both laughed. Jung was still very curious, “Can I ask, why are you still a virgin?” I smiled at her question. I made a promise to a certain woman and that was all I said.

It was getting a bit late and we had already spent four hours in each other’s company, a fact I disliked. I told her I’d ring her later just to see how she was doing. We separated and I walked on and waited to get the bus home. Not even half an hour went by and I had already got a text from her saying thank you for the time that I spent on her and asking when we would meet again. Bit clingy right? I already dated clingy women before, this was nothing new to me yet I still found it annoying. I told I was going to text her and I would do that as soon as I got home to see if she made it home safe. To know she couldn’t wait to hear from me annoyed me! This was only the beginning of it all. I had no idea that Jia-li would get involved in this and soon it was going to get a lot worse.