Suicidal Love Story Vol 7: Blue Lilly Chptr 24Zombies but not the ones you know; was something that captivated me. The emotionless zombie in psychology was a subject that Kaoru once told me yet being a young adult I adapted the theory and approached it with practicality. A zombie was a person, who cannot feel love, shame, hatred or lust; getting rid of useless emotions that stunt the growth to excellence. However this was not sociopathic or insane, to become a zombie you must not feel pain, pleasure or any other feelings that hinder you, you must mould emotions into something new, like a soldier that's been ordered to shoot a man would alter the belief and think of the man as a target, a moving piece of cardboard, a talking dummy! That was a zombie! Only use the emotions that help you get the job done.
You still respect others, care for people if it's beneficial to humanity and your goals.
I adapted this cold-hearted behaviour a couple of times, blocking my feelings and bottling up my earthly desires. Sexual abstinence and coitus
Suicidal Love Story Vol 6: Red Camillia Chptr 23In college, around lunch time Celine wanted to speak to me alone so we went out together to get a bite to eat. We began holding hands, just a friendly gesture that we were comfortable with. She looked around the shops but there was nothing she wanted, consider it window shopping. We eventually sat down and had our little chat after we got some food. It was a sunny and nice day, the sun radiated onto us as we decided to eat outside, watching the water flowing out of the fountain in the public plaza. "Wow, your posture is great!" She bellowed out at me touching my back and shoulders. I chuckled that a man needs a good posture; back in the past my posture was atrocious, something Mr Hyde would be best suited for. I'm glad she noticed yet I tried to keep my health good. All those tae kwon do classes really helped.
"So has something been worrying you?" I asked before I munched on my salad dressed bread roll. She was worried that her boyfriend and her was falling apart, they became more dist
Suicidal Love Story Vol 6: Red Camillia Chptr 22This as I said before was a so-called time of peace. I and Tom became good friends. We met in town, going to the internet café, having a drink in the bar, going cinemas and doing what good friends do. By now about two years had passed, everything was fine. I grown accustomed to the house and family, Tom's room was a regular boy's room with posters of women and football stars, a PC and game console. we spend some moments there, good memories yet also tragic memories when I watched him cry as he found out his grandmother had passed away.
One evening, I went upstairs to use the toilet, after using it and washing my hands, I opened the door, surprised to see Mei wearing a white t-shirt and jeans with glasses nestled onto her cute face while waiting outside. Without a word of warning she grabbed my hand and dragged me to her room, this was the first time I seen it, cute plush toys and teddy bears. Posters of Chinese pop stars and heart throbs upon her baby blue with a dark blue floral de
Suicidal Love Story Vol 6: Red Camillia Chptr 20The next day I go to Tom's house to see how he was doing but he was not in, Mei answered the door still in her pyjamas. "Since you're already here... I think its best you stay for a while, want some tea? I'll mix some honey in it" I could not resist. We sat down at the table and spoke about literature than about scary stories. I told her one particularly scary story and I could sense she was afraid or it seemed like it, she came closer to me. her slender hand, soflty touching the prominent nuckles on my lightly clenched fist. Her face looking worried. "What happened next?" she spoke with brown shaking eyes. "Did he see the ghost?" I went closer to her, tenderly putting my lips against her ear. "Boom!" I suddenly yelled! She jumped!
"Don't do that!" She screamed at me as she repeatedly hit me. We laughed it off but I realised that she was actually easily scared. She put on a horror film about ghosts. "I thought you were afraid of this?" I asked her but she said even though it's scary, i
Suicidal Love story Vol 5: Cherry Blossom Chptr 19Jia-Li gave off a bashful smile and we spoke like any old classmates would speak. The regular how are you, what you been up to? I gave her a warm smile as I heard her soft, innocent voice. How long had it been, a year? I calculated and yeah it was almost a year since I last seen her at the graduation certificate ceremony. She gained some weight, that's what you expect when you're a student eating junk food. She also had braces upon her teeth and with a self-conscious smile she said she looked like a geek. Yeah, she did look like a geek but I laughed and reassured that even then she was still beautiful. Her cute yaeba would be replaced by a sexy smile in years to come. We spoke some more, she was going to the convention with her sister and so we went inside the building so she could get tickets. Unfortunately there was only one ticket and thus she bought it for herself, she rang her sister about it and she was going to the convention to meet with others, unfortunately her sister would n
The JokerLife is a game to him
He makes the rules when it does not make sense
He walks on the winding road alone
The thinker who is a poet
He gazes in meditation as he sits on the coldest throne
In the moment, he toys with your respect.
Trying to find the meaning in coincidence and chance
He holds a flower in his pricked hand
Appreciating beauty while dealing with his next painful plan
He hides the joker under his sleeve
Only showing you the French knight of your heart
He is clever looking for madness
He is the fool hiding from wisdom
He is a snake with no fangs
He plays with your desire because he can
He knows you'll give him the fleeting love that he hoped for
When you look into his mirrored eyes
You see only the reflection of your own soul
He is grim when happy and laughs when sad
The kiss of true love is the only touch he fears
One day if you fathom his aim, he'll hide his joyful tears.